Hit me like a ray of sun ,burning through my darkest night

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

FINALLY 17 !

when the time pass 12, i am warmly greeted by mani wishes.I was realli elated for those i did not expect that they will remember my birthday and they actaully did.The presents i received this year are much much unique and memorable compared to last year .lols.Really appreciate and touched,thanks once again^^.

GET RID OF THESE BLUES
Single again for this year birthday,hopefully next year it's gonna be special.Haha.I would still prefer to hunt slowly for my Mr.right than to rush to it.Truthfully,i hope this year i would be spending my birthday with is him*.Sadly, this has not turned into reality,it was other who gonna spend with me.And of course i was not filled with dismay, we had broke up for quite some time.Just to say that, i have been one year older and my thinking shall change .These few months despite umpteen times trying to salvage the relationship, i still failed and its badly failed.I have not pinned on any hope like how i used to do because my task now is to get him out of my mind.Sounds so easy and yet it takes such a long period of determination and courage.so unbelievable, flame turn to dust.in the blink of an eye, everything is no longer the same.the beautiful days with him turned to history and be a part of memories.it's so tired holding on something that wont come back.the pain accumulated over the time.who will know how deep the wound has gone to, no one will but myself.time shall be the healer, eliminate away the sorrows that is kept inside my heart.the next relationship i should thus cherish it very much because i want to show what i did not show out in the past.i dont want this word exist.REGRET.

you are engraved on my mind*
If I could only hold you now and make the pain just go away.
i'll keep on trying to find my way.
i need a miracle.

i shall end my post here.going out with someone to watch movie.take care guys :)

Y12:50 AMY

I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides.